Meditation Journal

MEDITATION JOURNAL:

I was supposed to write about meditation for last week’s class…I sat at my desk staring at the computer telling myself sit down read Eric Shiffman’s meditations and write about it…it’s easy. Read, write, done. Well, here we are a week later and still nothing…

Meditation to me is letting go. Breathing. Listening to your breath and your inner soul. It’s my favorite part of Savasana – the last part of each yoga session. The part where you get to let go of your body, your thoughts, it’s my Ahhhh moment of most sessions. Recently I have been meditating sitting up with Gayla (at work), once with Catherine Ibsen (during class, which was amazing!), and by myself..oooooh and the Kundalini  yoga with Fletcher.

Most of the meditations I have done I try and either focus on a mantra, a one word mantra is easiest for me, or simply focus on nothing, clearing my thoughts…empting the mind.  I now have been using some of Fletcher’s mantras he taught us: Sat Nam and the Ad Guray Nameh – I love these.

My intention when I meditate usually starts with relaxation or to reduce stress, but then always ends with feeling more aware of my mind and body…it’s strange sometimes.  Meditating and looking towards my 3^rd eye I see lights sometimes…colors, blurry visions. The first time it happened I was teaching a class at work, walking them through the final pose and savasana, which I too feel deep into – the music was right, the session was intense, and I just felt like I was melting deeper and deeper into my body…I felt tingling, almost like my head was dancing…I don’t know. I guess that’s the best way I can explain it.. anyways… that’s what I’m trying to get too. The light feeling. Which takes me back to my favorite sutra 1.29 ~ from this practice all the obstacles disappear and simultaneously dawns knowledge of the inner self.  Ahhhhhhhhh. Simply, beautiful.

Now, I won’t lie…I tried to meditate yesterday afternoon in my office after reading up on Eric Schiffman. I got into a comfortable seat on the floor, closed my eyes, breathed…and just couldn’t get there…for whatever reason it just wasn’t happening. The noise on the floor, my racing “work” thoughts. Just wasn’t the right time or place. Uggggg. Today I will try at home, and then keep trying, and then walk to the beach on my days off and try there. I wish I could have my own personal meditation guru with me at all times..well the times I try to meditate. One day. One day it will just come naturally.

OM